[ A 'hm' but it's clear something just isn't connecting for him. ]
This flood is ridiculous, and I'm not even taking part in it.
[ He probably wouldn't normally be thinking this hard about it, but eggs are probably more adjacent to this topic for him than they are for humans.
He's been in the presence of the egg that Bodhi Rook is taking care of. Once. That was long enough for him to decide he would be camping out in his cabin even if he weren't sick. ]
[ Freeza would probably not look into making a career of that. He doesn't say certain words easily, only really driven to it in the heat of the moment and feeling a fool when it happens. But he knows how to tell his partner he needs him. He knows how to coax more words out of him, how to praise and at least try to reciprocate when he gets what he wants.
This would have been better in person. Where he could kiss him. Be held. And not have to conclude everything by his own manipulation? But hearing him was enough, and he came out of it at little surprised at himself, but satisfied -- one could hear that in his breathing, that he was breathing, and the little tremble in it. He might even have some minutes left before he comes down far enough to stop being outwardly sentimental. ]
[Marty's not prone to phone, or communicator, sex either. He likes being with his partners, where he can touch them. Sure, a bit of dirty talk or flirting is fun to set the mood, to spice things up, but not as the main event.
But it had been good. Freeza had known just what to say to wring gasps of pleasure out of him and send him over the edge. He takes a couple of minutes to get his breathing back to regular before he can talk, too.]
Though that will suffice -- however different it was.
[ The closest he will venture toward asking if he did that correctly. Or if that was even a correct thing to do. Maybe that's why he went ahead with it -- it seemed transgressive, in its own way.
It's not -- [ just? ] -- parenthood. If -- [ He stops himself. Edits. Redirects. ] -- being with someone isn't worth the risk of pain and having to fight to keep it, why would children be?
I said that because I was afraid. Too afraid, back then. If you asked the same question now, it'd be different. I'd put up with damn near anything to be with you.
[ Freeza won't be the one to tell him that it's obvious he'd put up with a lot, because gods if he hasn't dragged his feet every inch through this. He's quiet a moment, and to his credit, he doesn't immediately call Marty an idiot for being straightforwardly sentimental. ]
I'm angry that he's right. [ That other self. ] I simply...need to learn to think of this as something I want to keep and not merely as something I am inevitably going to lose, and I don't know how to do that yet.
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This flood is ridiculous, and I'm not even taking part in it.
[ He probably wouldn't normally be thinking this hard about it, but eggs are probably more adjacent to this topic for him than they are for humans.
He's been in the presence of the egg that Bodhi Rook is taking care of. Once. That was long enough for him to decide he would be camping out in his cabin even if he weren't sick. ]
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[He's got kind of joint custody, but it's still weird. It's an egg. It shouldn't be making noise.]
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I know this must be awkward to talk about, but half our conversations feel that way, so I'm honestly never completely certain.
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[That should not cheer him up as much as it does.]
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This would have been better in person. Where he could kiss him. Be held. And not have to conclude everything by his own manipulation? But hearing him was enough, and he came out of it at little surprised at himself, but satisfied -- one could hear that in his breathing, that he was breathing, and the little tremble in it. He might even have some minutes left before he comes down far enough to stop being outwardly sentimental. ]
It's cold here without you.
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But it had been good. Freeza had known just what to say to wring gasps of pleasure out of him and send him over the edge. He takes a couple of minutes to get his breathing back to regular before he can talk, too.]
I miss you, too.
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Though that will suffice -- however different it was.
[ The closest he will venture toward asking if he did that correctly. Or if that was even a correct thing to do. Maybe that's why he went ahead with it -- it seemed transgressive, in its own way.
A little chuckle. ]
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[It's definitely not the standard way to do it, but it's better than nothing. Much better.]
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The gym's more or less back to normal. I've been working out again.
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No. I mean --
[ He swallows. ]
You wanted me to be far more discreet, at first. You explained that people back where you come from would respond with violence to such a thing. Yes?
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I suppose I was hoping for something.
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Just because parenthood is a risk doesn't mean it's not one worth taking, though.
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I said that because I was afraid. Too afraid, back then. If you asked the same question now, it'd be different. I'd put up with damn near anything to be with you.
And I'd do the same for my girls.
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I'm angry that he's right. [ That other self. ] I simply...need to learn to think of this as something I want to keep and not merely as something I am inevitably going to lose, and I don't know how to do that yet.
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